Well it's March, what have I been up to?
I started reading this one really good, really long fanfiction, I read the latest Nalini Singh books, which were freaking glorious, I worship her ability to create worlds. What else? I watched Moana and Dr. Strange. Pillow and B-Dizzle and I have been planning our road trip where we're going, what music we need, who we're going to visit and so on.
It's been strangely hot here recently damn summer heat we managed to avoid it for a long while but now it's back. I miss being able to write my stories and develop my Opus, I lie in my bed some nights and all I can think of is different world building facts that I can't record in the appropriate place which throws me off so I can't get my thoughts to sit properly so I can write them out, which is irksome. I've been trying once more to become more comfortable with driving, I don't know I think I'm getting better and then I freak out, I need to get better though and practice makes perfect as they say.
I brought Skyrim and have been playing that, I have a bad habit of taking everything I find though but that's how I am in most games so there's not much I can do to change it I'm an acquisitive person by nature I like finding things. Pillow and I have also been playing Diablo 3 which is fun I admittedly have a bad habit of cackling evilly as I kill my enemies but it's just too glorious for me not to.
We have new neighbours and by Batman are they LOUD sweet merciful Shire sometimes I just want to muzzle them all, and I am not alone in that, Pillow and B-Dizzle have also expressed a desire to impose quiet on them, *sigh* children why you so loud?
For Valentines day Pillow B-Dizzle and I exchanged chocolates and flowers just like good Waifus, admittedly platonic polygamous Waifus but still it was something nice that made us all feel appreciated and shows that there are people who care about us and isn't that what Valentines day should be? Pillow and I also went into town and brought games and nail polish I got three two of which are only shades off of each other but that slight difference is important.
I really like the Moana soundtrack, a lot of people don't like the movie but I did, I mean there isn't an epic character shift like Frozen but I personally think it's still a freaking brilliant movie even if only for the soundtrack and the Grandma.
My aunty passed away last week, I don't really know how I'm dealing with it, I don't think I am, I don't deal well with grief so I tend to ignore it until it blindsides me, and yes I get that's not healthy but I don't know how to ... not. So yes it's abstractly sad but as long as I don't really think about it I don't get all the feelings, mostly I worry about my Mum because it was her older sister who passed and I worry about how she's coping but my sister and her family are currently living with Mum so even that's more and abstract worry that's constantly in my face, this of course doesn't change the fact that it's one of those things that leaves me staring at my ceiling when I try to sleep if I'm not drop dead tired, but hey who needs a healthy sleep pattern anyway huh? Certainly not me.
I'm excited about our roadtrip even though I haven't been doing to well with the soundtrack or the saving parts. I'm not a consistently reliable person I have accepted this fact and am learning to work around it, it just takes a bit of time.
Currently Listening To: Against the Current- Running With The Wild Things
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So it's a new year. I didn't do NaNo this year, as might have been obvious by the lack of November posts. I read a ton of Final Fantasy fanfiction and I discovered this great website for reading comics online here.
Christmas was nice, I went back to my home town, saw all of my family, ate a lot of good food, got some nice presents and people liked my presents for them so yay! New years was pretty quiet played my new Injustice game with Pillow... she won... a lot. But it was loads of fun. We also fulled a colander up with candy it was thus named the Mystical Candy Bowl. Hawke's Bay was very hot but since coming back it's been pretty cool and raining. It's been quite a rainy New Year.
I've been rewatching Digimon Frontier, seeing if I could make it past the episodes I always tended to get stuck on good news is I have, huzzah!
Previously B-Dizzle last year had brought a swan plant, it's spawned a lot of butterflies since then which has been nice.
Hopefully this year will be a good one, I'm hoping to do things this year I don't exactly know what things but things. My flatmates and I are supposed to go to Hobbiton this year so that's something to look forward to.
Currently Listening To: Digimon Frontier Opening
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This computer has no gifs on it how am I suppose to correctly express my feelings without gifs? How!? *Epic Pout*
Enough of that. NaNo is coming soon, I've been to back home recently, haven't been been up to very much, my birthday was nice, saw some people, drank.
Ooh Pillow go this new game a while ago called Stardew Valley, it's freaking awesome, I brought it then discovered I couldn't play it, which is just yet another example of my shitty lucky which has been in fine form recently.
My family are all well and they liked their birthday presents so that's good, I don't really know how to explain how I feel there I love my family but when I visit I feel like they're set in a routine and me being there just reintegrates me into it like I'd never left. I dunno. So Christmas presents need to be brought.
Pillow, B-Dizzle and I recently watched a ton of crime movies, also we're in the middle of watching Luke Cage on Netflix (which I guess is useful for watching stuff on the big TV without having to connect anything else) that was fun.
I haven't really been in the right place to write anything recently I need to get the information from my hard-drive and laptop before I can actually do anything, which is really annoying. I've been pinning stuff so theres that and reading a lot of fanfiction, I managed to log back into my Tumblr so thats a yay.
Anyway that's all I can really think of to write right now, I miss my comics and ebooks and my writing, but I need to sort out dollars before I can deal with that, though that's finally gotten fixed after it went off the rails in August so woop.
Currently Listening to: Gabrielle Aplin- The Power of Love
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I missed two months... oops?
Right what's up with me recently... my laptop died like words I shouldn't use, I've been using the desktop I brought for Sims which is not the optimal decision for me, all my writing! And my music and books and comics and pictures and dammit, anger.
April was itself, May was alright but I don't know I started feeling all weird like listless or something... unmotivated.
I've got new glasses now, and I got a haircut. I had super long hair (it reached my lower back and when straightened my butt) but now it's at my shoulders I think I look okay, I'm thinking of dying it, but I dunno.
It's winter here now, huzzah. I like listening to the rain but weeding the gardens in it's a bit much. We went to Armageddon again this year, it was amazing I brought a Pop Cap figure of Ace from One Piece it's so cute! I also brought an Urahara hat. Oh oh also I watched Magi, this first season at least, it's so cute! And cool.
I have really bad technological luck, at the end of first year I lost a cell phone I'd had for like three months and the hard drive I'd brought not long before that died, the new (bigger) hard drive I brought to replace that was decidedly twitchy about working if it's cord got touched, my laptop decided to be weird and not work while charging and not hold the charge properly before dying altogether, so I got a new laptop, my cellphone that I got to replace the one I lost decided that it wouldn't let me top up anymore, my laptop decided it didn't want to be able to play cds for extended periods of time, my new desktop had three hard drives only one of which worked, my external hard drive died, my laptop broke and died, my cellphone (a new one, it's "smart") decided that even though it's basically empty it's storage is fill (what even?) and now we have reached present day. It's like I'm where technology goes to die or break, Batman.
In happier news I made triple chocolate chunk chocolate cookies, they're tasty and if I had slightly less self control and a bigger stomach I would happily gobble them all like a greedy little cookie monster. Om nom nom.
I've been reading a lot of Hobbit and Lord and the Rings fanfic which has been nice but also sad. Some fanfic is like that though. Oh also I made an account on AO3 mainly only so I could read this one really good Merlin fanfic called a Modern Manservant. Ah there's something else I don't know if it's just because I've changed computers but my Tumblr is being annoying and not letting my log in, I don't really understand why but meh.
I have a super busy week this week which is good in it's own way, also a musician who I like on Soundcloud no longer has a lot of her fandom songs up which is really sad to me. Oh and we have Netflix now (I still don't really get why, I guess it's useful to watch stuff on the Xbox but otherwise I just don't really understand) well that's me for today I think.
Currently Listening To: Sia- Freeze You Out
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Alright, so WINZ has happened, it went alright. My volunteering has been going well so far I think. I like tidying shelves and I can have one headphone in while I work, I've been finding interesting sections in the library, like World History which I've become strangely interested in because of fricking Hetalia which I'm still on a kick of, also PruCan for the win!
I made a Chimera pinterest board which is helping me sort my world building, I tend to like having visuals while I work, it makes me feel better. I wish I could illustrate better then I could draw out scenes I tend to think in images and translating them into words isn't always easy. I went to Spotlight and got two Styrofoam balls to make globe maps before I try and draw them out flat, also I decided that the Capital City would be on a circular grid which is interesting to me. I've been trying this thing where you listen to a song and then try to write a oneshot based on it before it finishes which is interesting, and quite hard. I'm also still working on World Building which is really hard but I guess I just have to put my nose to the grindstone and work.
We're suppose to be doing some gardening this weekend, of course we were suppose to do it last weekend and the one before that but we'll get there eventually, I discovered that the Warehouse is selling records which was surprising.
Pillow and I went to do the thing. Flying in the plane was a little scary (a lottle) but also sort of fun-ish. The thing went well. I was very poor for a while because WINZ cancelled my disabilities benefit but they have since fixed that and so I'm currently financially okay which is very good. I re-enrolled for the first time in ages so that's good news, though I'm on the Maori electorate instead of the General one and I don't know how to change that. I watched a lot of anime, some I only watched the first few episodes of and others I watched in their entirety, it rocked.
Pillow, B-Dizzle and I went to see Deadpool. It rocked! Seriously, hardcore rocked. Also because of the massive Hetalia kick that I'm on right now when (spoiler)*Colossus tried to convince Deadpool to join the X-men* I just had the most massive image of Russia saying "Become one with Mother Russia, da?" Which was scary and a little hilarious.
I'm trying to think of what else I've been up to but I'm drawing a blank, though I did have crepes for the first time on Saturday, which is exciting also I could have had churros but I didn't. Well that's me for now.
Currently Listening To: Cobra Starship- Hot Mess
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Right so, I have a new WINZ person, which I'm kinda bummed about cos I liked my last one, he was quite nice and easy to talk to. My disabilities benefit isn't coming through just yet which pisses me off cos I still need to buy a new dress for the thing next weekend, well ok not need but would feel better. Also there were bills and so I have twelve dollars and minimal food, and still have a bill to pay.
We had our flat inspection from the note the inspector left I assume it went well, I got all the weeding done clean the bathroom, minimally cleaned my room so yeah.
Oh man I go in for training for volunteer work at the library on Wednesday, I'm sort of looking forward to it and sort of trepidatious about it, but it's good news, it is, it's getting back into the saddle.
In other news I read the new Nora Roberts book Stars of Fortune, oh mama was it good, I love her books and this one was set in Greece, I love Greece, all that history and nature and architecture and oh just everything, I get tingles just thinking about it.
In further other news I am taking up pilates, I've been using this one video from Youtube, I've thus far made it six minutes in after three tries, the beginning stretching exhausts me and I never realised how unfit I was until she said that it was a beginning stretch I thought it was an exercise, it killed me. But I will persevere, Pillows going to join me, also when we get back from the thing I'm enrolling in a gym, this is my year of fitness and doing better, also it counts as a leaving the house activity even if I drag Pillow with me.
I've been looking at world building for my story it's intense and requires a lot of thought and ideas and hard work, because you can't just throw people onto a backdrop in a story the speak metaphorically people will see right through the paint at the holes in the canvas, a huge part of plot and character development is the setting, and if you're writing fantasy or science fiction you need to know a crap load. I still can decide if what I'm writing counts as fantasy or sci-fi it has elements of both but I need to buckle down and write out basically everything also I really want a blank globe to map geography on so I'll look into buying one at Warehouse Stationary. I've also been thinking about time keeping and the length of a year, Earth once counted a ten month year but we're at twelve now and I'm thinking of making my worlds a sixteen month one, it would go with the idea that time passes differently out of their world and the longevity that I've been thinking of ascribing to them. But yeah.
Pillow should be back soon and the Kitteh and I will be happy to see her.
Currently Listening to: Ed Sheeran- Afire Love
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It is the New Year, huzzah. This year will be better, it will be good. It Will.
My hard-drive is currently on the Fritz which is worrying and bothersome. I read the Hawkeye comics, they're hilarious. I'm looking forward to Deadpool in February along with a celebration with my family, it'll be the first time I've ever flown on a plane I'm not sure what it'll be like, exciting though.
I'm looking at poems by someone named Nikita Gill on Pinterest, they're good. Oh I've also really gotten into art by Chiara Bautista.
New Years was pretty quiet, and Christmas was, good but a bit nerve-wracking. Also there were kittens, tiny adorable kittens I wanted to keep them all but couldn't since there were eight of them, so teeny and *squee noises*. My family was all good though, and I got the Taylor Swift cd and Ed Sheeran cd for Christmas so Yay!
We've still got quite a bit of weeding to do here, and I've got a WINZ appointment sometime but I cannot for the life of me remember when. I've got an email about volunteering and I haven't replied yet but I meant to but it's freaking me out and I just don't know what to do, I mean I know what to do but when I saw it I didn't want to click on it, then when I read it I was like how do I respond like I mean I know how but just I don't know, I mean I still have library fees why would they want me? I just need to breath, and do something instead of thinking, but it's been days what if that counts against me? Oh balls. Right. I'm just going to breath for now and cope later.
We went on a baking kick and I made cheesy buns and lemon madeiras, Pillow made double chocolate chewy cookies which were really good.
Oh, and we watched all of Jessica Jones, it was really really good, admittedly we watched it in four days but that's okay because at least we didn't just spam watch it all in one, which we could've.
Also I brought a Deadpool t-shirt oh and a Supernatural one, so things are good. Oh and Pillow has a candle that smells really really good, it's oatmeal and raisin and damn, does it smell good.
I think that's me for todays report.
Currently Listening To: Taylor Swift- Clean
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