Hmm I'm suppose to fill this in with writing and what's what. Pillow's feeling bogged down with assignments (I freaking love the word bogged) and every time I try to write I look at the blank page and either my pen or the cursor and my mind just goes blank, empty, there is nothing there. All I want to do is write my fanfic or work on my story and I can't. Away from writing utensils and such like my head is filled with the twists and turns and plot and shit and then I go to write any of it down and Bam gone. It sucks.
I went through a poem phase while in hiatus for this blog. One of my favourites is We Wear the Mask by Paul Laurence Dunbar, I also like one called Persephone Lied (here) I don't think it's actually a published poem but it's still very cool. While I was buried in the land of poetry I discovered the ship that I never realised I shipped until I found it. Brace yourselves. River Tam and Riddick. Think about it. It's brilliant. I got really into it. Also Rumbelle fics for Once Upon A Time.
What else did I do while on my Hiatus? I added an interlude to my fanfic, I started counselling, I organised book shelves, I tried to get a Job... I realised that I dislike leaving my house without either B-Dizzle or Pillow, which kinda makes the job thing a little iffy. Why can't I get one that I can do at home?
I returned once more to my home and celebrated the turning of the year, huzzah.
Well that's all I can think of now. So Bye.
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Wow so it's been ages since I've posted anything here.
Hmm what's been going on with me? Well heaps. I moved, I had my birthday, I'm seeing a counsellor for my many many many issues.
I've been trying to work on my fanfic but I just seem to have hit a block for myself, I've also become strangely addicted to bejewled blitz on facebook and spend ages playing it.
My laptop has decided it hates me and now only runs when it's plugged in, there also seems to be some issues with the mouse pad or the cursor which sucks.
My Sims doesn't work on here anymore so even though I really really want to play it I can't. I need to buy a desktop but sadly am too poor. I also really need to get a job so I can stop being poor but at the same time I like my house and dislike leaving it without one of my flatmates.
I've been thinking Naruto fanfic lately, one of my favourite concepts is one in which Hinata, Naruto and Shikamaru were enrolled in ANBU as children due to their prodigious talents, they were assigned masks and were trained under Inu (Kakashi) none of them knew who the others were, at eight the Hokage assigned them a long term mission protecting Sasuke and assessing the Academy staff, curriculum and students. He also told them they had to hide who they were while trying to figure out who their teammates were, they were informed that they would most likely not be reunited again until they reached ANBU once more.
I'll write a brief history of what happened in the past. Minato was on a genin team with Hiashi and Yoshino before being taken on as Jiraiya's apprentice, when Kakashi's father died Minato took him in and Kakashi lived with him and later Kushina until Naruto was born, when Orochimaru defected Kushina and Minato also took in Anko and both Anko and Kakashi viewed the two as surrogate parents and Naruto as a younger brother. Kushina was the daughter of the second Uzukage, granddaughter of the first Uzukage and his Senju bride, grand-niece of Uzumaki Mito and Tsunade's cousin, basically the Princess of Whirlpool.
After Dan died Tsunade left Konoha but after a few years Jiraiya hunted her down and convinced her to return and see her cousin (Kushina) after a while the two admitted their feelings for the other and were unofficially married. When the Kyuubi was sealed into Naruto Kakashi and Anko tried to get custody of him but as teenages themselves they failed, Jiraiya and Tsunade also tried but the council refused on the grounds that they weren't in the village enough to care for the child. He was placed in the orphanage but Kakashi and Anko along with the Hokage kept a close eye on him and when he turned three moved him into the apartment in the same complex that Kakashi, Anko, Gai and several other jounin lived in.
Naruto has his nii-san and nee-chan wrapped firmly around his little finger and so know quite a lot about both his parents and their friends.
In the Hyuuga clan Neji is seen to be quite the prodigy by most but Hiashi notices that despite Hinata seemingly failing at the Gentle Fist techniques she learns any advanced technique she is shown is soon demonstrated by her cousin. It soon becomes apparent to both Hiashi and Hizashi that Hinata is failing on purpose and teaching her cousin.
The Nara are renowned for their genius intellect and and Shikaku quickly notices how his young son seems to be an genius even among geniuses.
In the meantime Naruto demonstrates his own intellect by successfully copying a jutsu Kakashi had used. Kakashi informs the Hokage proudly of his little brothers achievement after first panicking. His proud boasting to other ANBU assigned to watch Naruto reaches Hizashi (an ANBU guard) and Shikaku. Hizashi tells Hiashi as he knows his brother likes to know about his deceased teammates son, while Shikaku ruminates on the idea of another genius child. Realising that without a correct amount of stimulation Shikamaru's mind would begin to stagnate and he may place himself in danger Shikaku goes to the Hokage to ask about setting up some form of training/play date between the children as he knows that most genius children tend to be socially inept, Hizashi, Sandaime-sama's ANBU guard at the time, mentions Hinata's talents as well and along with Kakashi they come up with a plan to train and socialise the three children. Deciding it would be best if they're unaware of each others identities at first the children as given masks. The ANBU are quite amused by the masks and dub the three Baby ANBU, or the Junior Division.
By eight the three have been training together since they were three and are still unaware of each others actual identities, they have also been trained not only by Inu(Kakashi) but also by various other ANBU, and have taken several C-Rank missions. On one of which they were assigned to a delivery to Suna where they met and befriended the Kazekages three children who have also visited Konoha since then.
The only time any of the three remove their masks is when they are at their homes with their families.
The five years that come between the ages of eight and twelve are long and boring, each of the three perfects the 'mask' and persona they will be wearing until they are reunited and they spend their time trying to figure out which of their classmates are their friends.
Hinata's mask/ persona is very shy and often fearful of her cousin Neji, due to the difference in age between her and her sister Hanabi her mask is taken to be the truth by her sister and the true relationship between Hinata and Neji is a shock when revealed. Neji has a great deal of respect for his cousin and also views her as a precious baby sister.
Shikamaru's mask merely requires him to exemplify the commonly remarked upon traits of his family, thus he sleeps through his classes and stares at clouds a lot. Neither of these things is hard for him and he views his time at the Academy to be a small vacation though this doesn't stop him cataloging the strengths and weaknesses of students and teachers alike and keeping one eye on Uchiha Sasuke at all times.
Naruto's mask is perhaps the most intricate as he needs to hide not only his own identity but that of his family, his residence and his knowledge of his burden, instead of trying to slip under the radar as he did in his ANBU guise he instead chooses to make himself so obvious and obnoxious that the radar ignores him. This works greatly but also means that he doesn't connect easily with anyone. Thankfully he knows that he has two best friends, his brother (Kakashi), his sisters (Anko and Shizune), his ojisan (Asuma and Gai), his Ojii-sama (Sandaime-sama), his Jiji (Jiraiya), his Baa-chan (Tsunade) and his little cousin/brother (Konohamaru).
Being as they are, exceedingly smart and well versed in the shinobi ways, all three have figured out what the most likely team they will be assigned to is; despite their best efforts they still haven't figured out who their teammates were a fact which vastly amuses the Hokage.
Shikamaru doesn't believe Hinata could be Mesu(Doe) as though she was often quiet she never hesitated to state her opinion, she was also a taijutsu genius who used many different styles blended with her water element while Hinata only uses the Academy style and the Gentle Fist which she isn't particularly adept at, Mesu was also rather confident and often spoke fondly of her family while Hinata seems shy and distant from her own. He nearly disregarded Naruto of being Hyō(Leopard) due to his nature of drawing attention the complete opposite of the way Hyō tended to do things, he knew his friend preferred to pass unnoticed. For a short while he suspected Sasuke; however, their team had been trained under Āmin(Ermine){Itachi} and had gone on several missions with him including the one he had been on while the Uchiha were massacred while they knew their Senpai was innocent of the crime they also knew that he had taken the blame for it so that he might infiltrate a secret organisation of SS-rank missing-nin; if Sasuke had been aware of that fact he wouldn't have been quite so determined to destroy his brother a fact which was completely obvious to anyone looking for it. So he once more turned his mind back to their other classmates, he knew that if she wanted to Mesu could blend with anyone and so he knew that he'd be unlikely to find her, she could be hiding as one of his civilian family classmates or as a male if she truly wished and so he focussed on finding Hyō, having crossed off Sasuke he also crossed off Chouji as he spent quite a bit of his free time in the other boys company. He analysed the facts that he knew about his brother-in-arms and best friend, upon meeting Gaara in Suna Hyō had basically adopted the other boy as a good friend, he looked at Inu-niisan as his brother and had been with him since he was an actual baby, he had enormous chakra reserves and was a brilliant tactile learner. None of which helped him, until he remembered one mission where Hyō had used a strange red chakra which he said was 'the legacy of my parents' the red chakra had been strange and animalistic much like the sand cloak that Gaara had used when they first met, Gaara who they later found out was the Jinchuuriki of the Ichibi; now he was getting somewhere, Hyō was obviously Konoha's Jinchuuriki, the tailed beast most thought of in relation to Konoha was the Kyuubi which had attacked on October tenth nearly twelve years previously, it had obviously been sealed into Hyō. Drawing from this fact his suspicions of Naruto grew, Naruto was an orphan who was greatly disliked by the civilians and was often referred to as a demon-child. Though this may have been due to his pranking prowess. So Shikamaru suspected Naruto and had no clue who Mesu might be.
Hinata being the Hyuuga Clan Heiress had access to the Byakugan of her clan and a knowledge of the chakra systems of her two teammates, however, both of said teammates had, along with her, been given seals to block and disguise said chakra systems so as to better blend into the Academy and her advantage was thus gone. Despite or rather because of his large chakra system Hinata ruled Naruto out of the running for either of her teammates, the seals would, she believed, not have left that much chakra. She too had momentarily contemplated Sasuke being one of her teammates but after spending time around the boy disregarded this as he would have refused to attend the Academy and would most likely not have to strange complex in regards to his clan that he did. Shikamaru gave her pause, neither of her teammates had been particularly lazy but there was a certain laconic movement he made which often reminded her of Inu-sempai and she didn't believe that any student outside of themselves would ever have had contact with the man, also the Nara family was known for their geniuses and whatever their faults their team had certainly been made of geniuses. One could devise tactics that seemed to read their enemies very minds, while another could see something once and be able to enact it after one try. That near instinctual genius could be attributed to the Nara clans known capabilities. So Hinata suspected Shikamaru but had no idea which of her teammates he could be.
Naruto was the only one out of his teammates who never suspected Sasuke, the boy just rubbed him as wrong in a way that neither of his friends ever could. After several months of trying to convince Kashi-nii to tell him who they were Naruto spent several years merely observing his classmates, Mesu was quiet and confident she was brilliant at blending in with others and hated being confined with her taijutsu, Hōku(Hawk) was snarky and could nearly read the minds of those around him. Both of them had always been better than him at infiltration missions because they could seamlessly slide into roles while he preferred just not be noticed at all. For a while he suspected Shino, then Kiba, Sakura, then another girl named Masumi but none of them felt quite right. It wasn't until one day after class when he noticed Hinata walking home looking downtrodden that he realised she didn't set off his instincts in the way other students did, in class he payed attention to her behaviour which never wavered from it's shy excluded manner, but despite the way the other students sent his instincts into over-drive she didn't even make a blip, something that was basically impossible. He had no idea who Hōku could be but due to the strange lack of upset to his instinct in regards to her Hinata found her way onto his radar for Mesu.
But anyway that's just like the history behind the idea that I've had, I don't really know where I'll go with it or if I will. Maybe I should read more Naruto fanfic?
Anyway that's me for the day.
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Gah
So I'm heading back to visit my family for a week on Monday, huzzah!
Easter was what it was.
I've really got to get serious about finishing the next fanfic chapter.
I've made a plan for when I head home, I'm going to find the bloody bartending license that appears to have vanished, and get my NSN once I've got those I'll apply for jobs at bars which I will hopefully be competent enough to do.
In other news B-Dizzle, Pillow and I are abandoning Only Male and heading off to a new flat. I feel quite upset about this as I'm really not good with change. One good thing about it though is that I get to make copious lists of what we need and when by and what we have and so on and so forth. The little part of me that's completely ruled by a mild form of OCD rejoices at this, the organization oh joyful day!
One thing I'd be interested in learning is how to make jobs on Sims 2. I've given up attempting to though as the software dislikes my computer.
Ooh also I really want a futon! I'm a special kind of person who vastly prefers sleeping lower to the ground than even a low bed allows, of course Pillow has dictatorially stated that I'm not allowed one just as she did about my choice to get a motorbike and a gun, however, unlike those decisions this one will happen, because despite what many people appear to believe I am neither a child nor am I mentally deficient. When I said I wanted a gun I was thinking about my personal safety I knew that I would need proper training and a license and everything I was prepared to get those so that I would have peace of mind. My decision to get a motorbike wasn't based on how cool it would look but rather on maneuverability and my personal level of comfort, I know that I'm not likely to ever feel comfortable driving a big car or really any kind of car that leaves me with the option of a ute or a bike and I've always preferred bikes. With regards to the futon I like low beds, I like the option of folding it up and having more space especially considering I'm constantly being told I'll be given the smallest room, it makes sense that I be given it as I do tend to have less stuff here than the others and I don't have a big bed, however, I still like space and a futon can easily be stored away so that there's more space during the daytime.
And now I apologize for the rant, I do adore my flatmates sometimes I just need to vent about... well everything really. I really suck at conveying how I feel out loud, I forget what I'm saying or I can't think of how to explain it so someone not in my head can understand.
Well thats me complained out. I'll post something else when I get back I guess.
Currently Listening To: The Lumineers- Hey Ho
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Lately I've done some painting, not much but some. Mostly I've just been reading and playing Sims. Still looking for a job, Why do employers constantly require that you have your full license?
Easter is upon us and with it much chocolate which I can appreciate. I've gone several weeks without reading any fanfics so to make up for that I spammed some Torchwood fics last night. I need to get the new chapter up soon. Oddly enough quite a few people have been favoriting or following it, so I mean little bit of pressure but also good tingly feelings, right?
I did this course at the beginning of the year it was called Creative Processes and while in it we split into separate groups to do our final project, my group got to talking about fanfic and from it I found a brilliant explanation for it. Fanfiction is a way for new writers to develop their own particular style it gives them a chance to experiment with an already established and well known literary universe. I liked that explanation and I have to say that if I ever make it big I would be so amazed if there were fanfics about what I write about because in a way it means that what you've created has had such an impact on people that it's spark something in them that they felt they had to share, which I think is awesome. From the other side I can see why some authors really don't like it though because when I make my characters and my world it's like my baby or something I don't even really like people looking at it without me checking that it's just the way I want it and even then there's this clutch this moment of 'no no you can't look at that it's not suppose to be seen by anyone but me' so I understand the proprietary stand that some authors take about their work.
I don't really have much else to say unless you'd like me to go into the weather so, this is me signing off.
Currently Listening to: Vietnamese Saxophone (Don't actually know the name)
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Well Easters approaching. I finally have money and I've talked to my family so I call that progress.
I finally had my meeting and I got there and there's this guy sitting there and you go up to him and he checks you have everything for this freaking appointment, I'm all sorted, so apart from the usual mild freak-out that I run anytime I'm away from the house, then he pulls out his list and is like you need three of this and I'm like no I don't and he's like yes you do so I pull out the checklist I was given and I'm like "No I don't" and he looks at his and say yeah you do so there I am having this mini panic attack and he's busy bustling about by this time I've pulled out all the forms that I needed and I'm like that wasn't on my list this was on my list but that wasn't eventually he went and talked to the dude I had to talk to and the dude said it was fine so I went and calmed down a bit then had my meeting. But honestly you'd think they would give me the right list or at least make sure their checking person has the same list as they're giving people. Hmph.
What else have I been up to? Well I've been looking for a place in NZ where I can buy Sims 2 stuff packs since The Warehouse doesn't sell them any more and I can't find them on trademe. I've been enjoying naming houses on my game such as Owlsmoor and Ravensmead.
I went to the library... a lot. See I have been leaving the house! I finally found the first of Neil Gaiman's Sandman comics. Let me tell you I read the first four books mostly because I was already familiar with two characters that get introduced in the fourth book Seasons of the Mist, the Dead Boy Detectives otherwise known as Edwin Paine and Charles Rowland, two ghost-boys who loved watching the film noir detectives and decided to be Private Investigators, of course only the magically inclined and children their age or a bit older can see them. Still reading their origin was interesting as was meeting Dream and seeing the Endless. I'd recommend these comics to anyone really just be aware that they're filed under horror for a reason. I've also been rereading JD Robb's In Death series, if you haven't and you enjoy the ahem female crimes then I'd advise you to grab a copy, the series is set in the future and follows New York Lieutenant Eve Dallas and her, later, husband the Irish billionaire Roarke. The crimes are believable many of the books don't have a straight cut and dried answer, and they are very, very good, as evidenced by my rereading them.
Another author that I love was introduced to me when I was thirteen, her name is Catherine Webb and she wrote four of my absolute favourite books, Mirror Wakes and Mirror Dreams follow the mage Laenan Kite and his adventures in Haven the City of Dreams, while the others Waywalkers and Timekeepers follow a man by the name of Sam Linnifer who at first glance could appear normal except that he's the son of Magic and Time and his original name was Lucifer eons ago. The four books are superb and I love reading them.
And that's me for the past week or so. See ya!
Currently Listening To: Pistol Annies- Takin' Pills
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Well not really...
So I've had a trying two days. Had a huge sleep. Watched some movies and was highly irritated by my Sims 2 game because it wasn't playing. I ended up spending several hours just sorting different downloads into organised folders.
My flatmates (B-Dizzle and the previously un-named Only Male) and I made pizzas for dinner which were delicious, or at least mine was, it had just the right quantity of cheese... which was bottom middle and top, as it should be.
My games back up and working now so the organising must have done something, I dunno.
I did some work on the fanfic so I should have a flash of inspiration soon and be able to update that. Have got all the folders and files I need for this meeting I have to go to, only problem is making the stupid thing, honestly, I call them and get directed to their site so I go on the site and it won't even let me do anything! Grr!
I've been playing quite a lot of Sims lately. The reason is that I love to make stories in the game and see how things work out, it's quite fun. Detracting from the fun is the fact that my laptop has recently discovered the joy of overheating and then freezing so I now have to make sure it's sitting on something while I do things, considering the fact that people would have tot pry it from my cold dead fingers to get me away from it that can be considered very bad, as just regular use causes it to heat up.
Right now I'm sitting at it writing on this blog and looking through male hair for my sims on SimsResource. I'm also trying to decide whether I should re-watch Full Metal Alchemist (which is one of my all time favourite anime) or whether I should finish watching Noragami. OH! I just remembered something, so yesterday I was running on fumes as I'd woken up at 8 the night before, and so tiredly was I sitting at my laptop scrolling through my Facebook news feed as you do when your bored and can't think of anything else to do, when what do I find? A page firmly stating that Anime is Evil and only Satanists watch it! Thinking it was just one of those troll pages that pop up now and again I decided to scroll through it... This was a bad choice on my part, now personally I don't have anything against... basically any religion, I'm not overly religious but I accept that there are those people who are, however, one thing that really irritates me is people pushing their religion and using it as a tool to insult and well bully other people for the things that they like or the beliefs and personal choices that they have and have made.
To me religion can be a deeply private thing and it should never be used as a weapon against someone else.
As a child I read the Narnia books as I'm sure many people did and one of the things that struck me as incredibly true that has stuck with me over the years was the Last Battle. It's the final book where Narnia is dying and as it does the people come to a large door. Using my really bad describery powers, it's set out so that there's a door and there's shadow just before and as the people and the creatures come to it they either go through the door or into the shadow. Now here's the important bit, in the world of Narnia there are the Narnians and there are the Calormenes who live across the desert, the Narnians worship Aslan while the Calormenes worship Tash and believe Aslan to be a demon, but either Calormene or Narnian were welcomed through the door, though really I think there was only the one Calormene but that's not the point!
The Calormene that came through saw Aslan and question why he was there when he'd always worshipped Tash and Aslan said that he had lived a good and wholesome life and it was counted as "work done unto him and not Tash" as Tash couldn't receive "good service" while Aslan couldn't take evilness. Or something like that. Anyway the point I was trying to make was that there is something Good and there is something Evil and it doesn't really matter what you worship, if you do good things and try and be nice to everyone then you're solid but if you're a c*nt and hide behind your religion you're screwed sideways.
Something to think about, and with that rant that wasn't actually suppose to be here I bid you adieu.
Oh and also if you're going to make a page that's completely devoted to insulting something at least do your research about it otherwise you look like an idiot.
Currently Listening to: Macklemore- Same Love
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Guess what?
I HAVE A JOB!!!
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April Fools! I'm still a mooching freeloader who no-one wants to employ. Still in the spirit of April Fools consider yourselves pranked. Aren't I nice?
So what's been up with me since I last posted? Well I binged a whole lot of Harry Potter/ Final Fantasy XIII crossover fanfics.
I went to the bank and am now one step closer from not being a freeloader.
I had a strange dream about cats that were royalty, it was weird and probably not something I should admit to publicly.
I discovered, for the umpteenth time, that I'm complete sh*t at writing fight scenes, I just suck at it, or at least at Naruto Fanfic fight scenes, I mean I can visualise it perfectly fine but actually conveying that in words? Fuhgeddaboutit.
Why is that basically the story of my life, I mean I amuse myself for endless hours with the stories I tell in my head but try and put those on paper and all I get is "Uhm and then stuff happened and it was awesome and yeah," I mean honestly? How's that for fair?
Wouldn't it be weird though if all those stories that are going through your head are also going through someone elses head and the reason you can't write them down is because they are the ones who are suppose to... Well that just tripped me out a bit.
What else have I been doing? Well as has become quite usual for me I have been downloading more Sims 2 custom content, I don't know why it's just become rather addicting and I can't help myself... Ooh my head just filled with that dude I don't know where from but he says "Do or Do not there is no try." Maybe Yoda? I googled it, it was Yoda... the things you remember without actually meaning to.
Oh I also found a new anime that I'm quite enjoying called Noragami, I won't go into detail except to say that it balances humour and drama along with superb animations and the fight scenes dear batman! It's brilliant.
And I'm pretty sure that's me for the night/morning. I shall now return to attempting to write fight scenes... which hate me. I'm outtie!
Currently Listening to: Lustra- Scotty Doesn't Know
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