I'm supposed to write things out in an ordered manner but my mind doesn't work like that. I'm stalled in my chapter it's set in the time when Hermione meets the boys but my mind keeps focussing on the death of Selene Lovegood and the various plots of Dumbledore and Lucius Malfoy and the Death of Walburga Black which canonically happened when Harry was five but which I'm making happen when he's six/seven early in 1998, I'm also a little stuck on Sirius and Marlene McKinnon and the idea that they dated pretty seriously during their last few years of Hogwarts and the early years of the war before the entire McKinnon family was killed, I've been thinking that they'd be killed soon after Lily finds out that she's pregnant and for a while Sirius can't cope properly and stays with the Potters, he goes to Lily's birthing classes with her when James can't and he's the one who buys the strange foods that she craves and discusses baby names (trying to slip Elvendork in there and talking both Potters out of naming the baby after friends who've died {if you did that Prongs the kid would have so many names it's not funny, he jokes despite the horrible truth of it, so many of their friends are dead now}), the Potters are the ones who help him grieve Marley and then Regulus, when he finds out that his Slytherin brother (who he hasn't properly spoken to since he left home at sixteen, even years later he wonders whether if he'd tried harder to convince him Reggie would have come too) has died trying to escape his fate as a Death Eater. It's Harry's birth and being named godfather that allows Sirius to properly begin to move on with his life which makes it all the sadder when you realise that no-one was there to help him grieve the Potters properly. All of these things are busy dancing around in my head ideas snow-balling or fading and that's just for this fanfic. I started thinking about my Opus and now I'm wondering if I should write about Melchiors descent into Necromancy and beyond as a catalogue of his change trying to get people to sympathise/empathise not realising who he is and them BAM the realisation that one of the main characters they've been rooting for is in fact the depraved lunatic whose death they've been longing for, it'd be a good twist but I'm not sure how I'd do it. I think it'd be a good way to show that even in fiction there isn't always a clean tidy solution and ending for everyone, not every bad guy starts out that way and some times the best intentions lead to the worst sort of corruption and that sometimes there is no redemption especially when they're so far gone that even at the end they don't see that they've done anything wrong, how do you rehabilitate someone who is sure their right? I've been wondering if I should kill off one of the focal characters but I'm so attached to them I don't want to, I can't be the Lord Farquad writer whose like "Some of you may die, but that is a sacrifice I am willing to make." I don't want the ones I like to die! I barely want the ones I don't like to die why do you think my main evil character is a Necromancer? Most of his army are just reanimated dead people sometimes even reanimated people who fought against him, which let me tell you can lead to some heart-wrenching moments especially since even when they're put down again he can just reanimate them, though most of them are just the soul-less bodies powered by his magic others he put actual effort into and they're back completely, except with little to no control over themselves, they are merely receptacles of his power bound to do his bidding. Right, I haven't been good with the updating of the blog but I will! For now I shall go forth and write, getting it on here was a good way to sort it a bit in my head, good blog, helpful blog. Currently Listening To: The Corrs- So Young Current .gif feeling:
So I was bad. I was really tired and I missed out on the last ten days. I haven't written in that time either. A couple days ago I went to WINZ, while earlier in the week I did a little Christmas shopping which I'm going to continue doing until it's all done, I also wrote out a list of what to get everyone. I've been reading Harry Potter fanfic, and watching Durarara a lot recently. Today I did my dishes and my washing, yesterday I had the worst most terrible headache ever, B-Dizzle and I are going to make buns today so that's a Yay. I also recently went through a phase where I responded to everything with Bah hah hah, it was weird. So as I mentioned earlier I've been reading Harry Potter fanfic, I think I want to write more of my fanfic but I don't know just yet. The ones I spent a good several days stuck on were ones where James and Lily come back from the grave and let me tell you I have got some freaking bones to pick! For one Albus Frickidy-fracking Dumbledore was the Headmaster of Hogwarts, the Chief Mugwump of the ICW so a politician/ ambassador, and the Chief Warlock of the Wizengamot a judge for the Wizarding court/ chairman of their political thingy, whatever no where in there does he have the right to decide custody over a child, no where in there is it up to him to decide whether a kids parents can live with said kid, I mean for the love of Gotham, these are the people who died for their son and suddenly Dumbledores allowed to tell them whats best for him? Or even better Molly Weasley is believed to have more right to mother him and parent him deciding what information he is and isn't allowed to know than his own parents? By the power of Batman I am irked, IRKED I say, I mean yes they came back from the dead but the person who should be allowed to decide what happens to Harry should be the person they entrusted with his care, Sirius should be the one to decide what Harry hears and how he's parented not them, I always get so annoyed. The fifth book is where I blatantly stopped reading, number one because of Umbridge, no teacher should feel perfectly safe and comfortable torturing students children whose care she has been trusted with in an environment that is meant to be safe, number two the end of it I will speak no further, number three Harry watched a fellow student, one he had played against and cooperated with one with whom he had an amicable and friendly relationship die and everyone decided that it would be a great time to ignore him in his borderline abusive household without talking to him about what he might be feeling like say survivors guilt? Real freaking smart idea and then they're all like why are you so angry your acting childish, he's stilling coping with watching a fellow student whom he was friendly with DIE and the man who killed his parents come back to life I'm sorry that his feelings are inconvenient to you. Number four Molly and Sirius argument about how much Harry should know, I don't care how much she supposedly cared for Harry it was not her place to decide and then to say Sirius only saw Harry as James? That was a low blow especially when staying in his house, the place where he was abused and that he swore never to return to. Essentially I hated the fifth book and only ever read the sixth and seventh in Characters Read the Books fanfic because I wouldn't have been able to make it through without trying to kill something without having the characters butt in. For my fanfic I'm thinking about Selene (Luna's mum who's name hadn't been released when I started) Lucius and Dumbledore plotting, the fact that Walburga didn't die until Harry was five but I've already past that and now I want to use her death for something, there's also the Basilisk to deal with and Luna's grandparents. Oh well I'll get there. Currently Listening to: Florence and the Machine- The Queen of Peace Current .gif feeling:
Well today I worked on my Bleach fic, I've decided to write the random adventures of Urahara, Yoruichi, Tessai, Ichigo and the Visored up to canon so currently the first four are heading to America, Urahara to study Science, Yoruichi and Tessai for the vacation and Ichigo because well he basically just goes where Urahara goes, at this point I'm pretty sure neither of them know how to correctly function without the other which is going to make canon so much fun. Kisukes had all of his Shinigami life and a strong portion of his human life to get used to Ichigo helping him with experiments and dealing with people for him, suddenly a lot of his actions in canon can be looked at in a completely different way. At this point I'm pretty sure that by the time canon comes around the only people he'll actually be able to interact with without making some sort of faux pas and having Ichigo fix it will be those who he went into exile with and canon-Ichigo since he's still Ichigo. It's going to be fun to go through that. In the meantime I still have to fold my washing and I have dishes to do now, yay. I slept a lot today and now I'm uber-boiling some eggs to mash onto toast for my dinner/breakfast. It was raining today so I got to enjoy yet another part of the season of Spring where it can't make up it's mind what season to be so it throws both at you. Luckily I didn't have to be anywhere. Currently Listening To: Broods- LAF Current .gif feeling:
So today is the tenth day of November. I rewatched several episodes of One Piece, I want to say I did it to help me with my writing but that would be a lie. I just really wanted to watch the episodes where the Straw Hats reunite after two years. Reunion and revelation fics are some of my favourites. Working on the One Piece fic, also thinking on ways too develop the characters of my opus. I need to remember to treat every character as an individual person no matter how insignificant their part may be initially. Just because I don't think I'm going to use them much at the beginning doesn't mean I won't need to bring them back in occasionally. I also need to copy all of my writing onto my hard drive so I have back ups. Nothing sucks more than spending ages working on something only for it to get wiped. Today was also quite warm, and over cast. I've read the two last chapters of Detective Conan and I'm working up the nerve to read the latest Ubel Blatt, it's just so difficult because you want him to dominate and kick ass but he's so not used to his teeny little fairy body. Currently Listening To: Hozier- Work Song Current .gif feeling:
Today the weather has decided to give us a sneak peak of what is to come this summer. By which I mean that it's been hot and sunny. I'm chewing on strawberry bubble gum thinking of how to work the One Piece fanfic. As always I know where I want to go but getting there is the problem. It niggles at me at the most inopportune moments. I have flashes of scenes but I have no idea of how to approach them. Bah! I need to fold my washing, return my library book, turn in my volunteer form, check when my next WINZ appointment is. Also need to see when my sisters coming to visit or if she still is with all the bad lck her family's been having recently. I've read a few of the JD Robb books now I'm reading more. Eh heh heh. I hope tomorrow is sunny but less hot. Currently Listening To: Taylor Swift- Wildest Dreams Current .gif feeling:
It is Sunday. The day of rest. Sleeping and chillaxing. I almost booked a bus ticket home but I don't know if the cheaper one actually runs to where I want to go or not, it's really irksome. I hate travelling on the more expensive one because there's all these stops, there's so many people and I always get car sick (bus sick?) but the day I can go home is in the middle of the week so I don't know if my sisters partner would be able to come get me if I book a cheaper ticket to the closest city to our town. Darn it life is hard, and now I'm stressing about it when I should just stop thinking about it. I re-watched episodes six and one of No Game, No Life, and the first episode of Tokyo Esp. I don't really know why I just really wanted to. I also came up with a realisation while I was watching Tokyo Esp, I remembered what happens in the show because the first episode is set right around the last two so it's sort of like starting with an end statement to highlight something. I got to thinking about the fact that the Government in the show created this law that ended up imprisoning a whole ton of Espers as a reaction to terrorist actions by a group of Espers. Doing this basically means that most Espers who would have helped them have been imprisoned and disillusioned against normal people. Also when the terrorists launch an attack there are few-to-no Espers able or willing to stop them. It got me thinking that this is something that happens in real life; say you have a group of some thirty people and nine of them do something bad generally people blame all of them. I'm just like don't blame the many for the actions of a few, blame those who are responsible not everyone else. It's not fair. I haven't written anything yet, I don't know if I will today, I'm tired and today is supposed to be the day of relaxation but we'll see. Currently Listening To: Demi Lovato- Confident Current .gif feeling:
Right so I've written some more of the One Piece fic, Luffy and his Papa and the ASL trio reunite *Squeee* I've also put more into the Bleach fic, trying to catch up to canon while also writing out the hundred years in between the exile and canon. There's excitement for the new Alice: Through the Looking Glass movie that's coming out next year, it looks so good! I'm so excited. I texted my Mum today, she seems to be doing well. Had garlic bread and Rocky Road chocolate for dinner. So healthy. I also brought a lot of gum to chew on while I write, there's so many flavours. Today I was in the mood to read One Piece fanfic while I work, also I really wanted to reread some of my JD Robb books. I love ASL on the Moby Dick fanfics, especially when they're younger, it's so cute, the Whitebeard pirates having no idea what to do with them. I was very confused today, I knew the date but I didn't know the date and it left me feeling a bit off kilter. In the good news column I had a shower and I finally feel better after sleeping all the way through instead of getting woken up every few hours. It's B-Dizzles birthday tomorrow, so there's excitement. People are still shooting off fireworks. Which is disconcerting especially since last night our neighbours were being idiots and trying to burn down our house, well not really but that's what it felt like when they shot their fireworks so they skidded across our driveway. That's me for today I think. Currently Listening To: Nightcore- Viva la Vida Current .gif feeling:
I had the shittiest sleep ever because of this frickity frackin headache. In the good news column I finally did my washing and I also washed my dishes, huzzah. But back to this freaking headache, it sits in the right of my head causing a lingering sense of pain and discomfort, getting to sleep is next to impossible, sleep itself is uncomfortable and then there's the constantly waking up, my eyes are all heavy and I feel like shit. Also I took my last panadol but when it stops working I'm screwed. I watched all of No Game, No Life in one go and didn't realise, I just got so into it that I didn't notice how many episodes I'd watched then I scrolled down to load the next one and there wasn't one. Sadness. The anime itself was really good, I can't think of ways to phrase it. I laughed a lot. Well there's a Ryohei in my KHR fic now and the closest I've ever gotten to an action scene. So you know pride. Also my time line is a bit skewed, so lets say, Tsuna starts using ATs (6), T meets Shouichi, Hibari buys ATs (Hibari age 8), T befriends Kyoko and Hana (7), Yamamoto Shizuka sees Tsuna, buys Yamamoto Takeshi ATs dies, T Y and H meet at Shouichis, T saves Ryohei and Kyoko (8). But in the fic it's not quite so linear. It causes a few brain problems thinking it out. Mental gymnastics and mathematics. So all in all today was productive. Also my sister might be coming to visit me. It'd be the first time any of my family has visited since we moved. So excitement. Currently Listening To: Chainsmokers Remix- Goodness Gracious Current .gif feeling:
Yuuuurgh, I am sick. It Sucks, I slept a lot today in the hopes I'd feel better... I didn't. My throats all sore so I took some throaties now I'm om nomming on my leftover pizza while people shoot off fireworks. Today is Pillows annual date with V so we're trying not to disturb her, our Kitteh wants to go outside but she isn't allowed due to the danger of fireworks. Also the fireworks sound like cannons going off. I hurt still. Writing isn't coming, it's all working out in my head but I'm not in the right place to translate in onto paper. I'm still cold and also shaky, and my head hurts. Damn it. Currently Listening To: Lady Antebellum- Downtown Current .gif feeling:
Right, so today I went to counselling, talked about a lot of stuff ended up on the topic of my family as I generally do. Haven't really written anything as I'm dead tired and will soon be heading to bed. It's freezing cold today so I'll be happy if the Kitteh decides to join me in my slumber. Also pain... I've been reading more KHR fanfics trying to get in the right mind frame to work on things when I wake up. I dried my dishes but didn't do my washing, which is unfortunate since I really want a warm/hot shower and my long pjs which are in my laundry hamper. Well I can't really think of anything else to say as I am mentally wiped. Later. Currently Listening To: One Republic- If that's what you wanted Current .gif feeling:
Ooh I feel all droopy today. On the bright side I have cookies and grape fanta. I've just read the most amusing line of the day "God give me patience, for if you give me strength I will smash their heads into the wall" It made me laugh. I've been thinking of ways to add Ryohei and while also getting Tsuna, Hibari and Yamamoto into alliance together for the KHR fanfic, I've also been trying to add to the Bleach fanfic, getting it to canon and then figuring out whether to write snapshots or go all the way through. I've also been thinking off getting prompts for the third Harry Potter fanfiction, also expanding Angelina and Alicia's parts. I hurt. I have counselling tomorrow, I really need to sleep tonight. I've been doing the breathing things and letting go of all the 'what if' thoughts, I'm going to take my volunteer form with me I think. I need to dry the dishes and do my washing too. Sigh Currently Listening to: The Script- For the First Time Current .gif feeling:
That stupid thing that happens every month has happened, I did not calculate this into my plans, I don't know how I forgot something that occurs every month but I did. Idiot. I will persevere, however. Panadol and sugar are my friends, thank goodness for extra Halloween chocolate. I wrote some more of the KHR fanfic, so far the idea is one where Tsuna, Yamamoto and Hibari all get into Air Treks and eventually meet, over time they unite to protect and control all of Namimori's Underground, including the fringe that Storm Riders sit on. I've introduced Kyoko and Hana as well as Ryohei, Tsuna introduces them to the World of Storm Riders and eventually Kyoko and Hana befriend Haru and make a Gang of Storm Riders. I've been toying with the idea of introducing members of the Varia and other people building up to when Reborn comes to tutor Tsuna. It should be good...ish. To get in the right head space I've been reading Skull-centric KHR fanfic. I love Skull, he cracks me up and there's so much potential in his character. Right now I'm thinking of adding him since he's a stuntman he'd probably be really interested in ATs. Well that's me for today. Currently Listening to: Paradise Fears- Sanctuary Current .gif feeling:
Well it is now officially November. The Beginning of NaNoWriMo. Am I ready? I don't know. Will I try anyway? Yes. Maybe. Yes. Halloween was it's usual even B-Dizzle, Pillow and I all dressed up then sat on our couch eating chocolates and watching scary movies... scary for me anyway probs not for other people. I have no idea what I'm going to write for NaNo, I was thinking just as long as I write something I should be ok, so my plan is to just write something every day it doesn't have to be the same story just write, and update the blog as proof that I wrote that day. I wonder if anyone's ever noticed that there are different writing styles for different fandoms, or at least for me there are, I always feel terrible in regards to most anime fanfics because there's so much more action in them than my Harry Potter ones and the way I write changes, I don't have a lot of confidence in my ability to write action scenes, people and interactions are so much easier, but I suppose learning is important if I want to finish my Opus one day. Today I worked on a KHR fanfic, which is crossed over with the a basic idea of Air Gear, there are none of the characters and I think I've changed a lot of things but the basic idea is the same... I think. I got the idea while I was reading some KHR fanfic where Tsuna practices parkour. My mind works in odd ways so that's what I got. Currently Listening to: Ingrid Michaelson- Girls Chase Boys Current .gif feeling:
