Ok so a lot a lot a LOT has happened this year. To begin with I enrolled in the UCOL Interior Design course, and went through the first semester of that alright, I made social acquaintances, I did assignments, I felt challenged and fulfilled, it was good. There was a small lapse in April but I powered through. Then second semester came... or tried to, I missed weeks, I attended sporadically, basically I was a shitty student, thanks anxiety. I went through some really dark periods, but my lecturers and the school staff were amazing, they sat me down, we talked it out, I did what I could and we worked with that. I mean I felt so shit because I really liked the classes I just couldn't deal with them. So next year I'm going back for two more classes and then I'll have a diploma, only seven years late and in a completely different subject than originally planned.
Next, my Dad was in and out of the hospital this year, they've signed him up for a lung transplant in five years time and until then he has to attend physio therapy because he had a lung reduction, he hasn't been able to consistently walk since early this year and is now in a wheelchair, on top of that he's caught pneumonia at least twice and been admitted into the hospital. As if that isn't enough my sister (still living with Mum and all her family) had a heart attack and had to be flown to Wellington to have stents put in, she then checked herself out against doctors recommendation to go home. Then there's my Mum, who has been having asthma attacks and has had the ambulance called for her twice now, how did I find out about this, I hear you wondering, my sister posted it one Facebook. That's how I found out about that.
In the meantime, B-Dizzle, Pillow and I have moved. B-Dizzle now lives with one of her other friends while Pillow and I live with teh Kitteh and dum-da-dum *Boyfriend* (Pillows Boyfriend, not mine, it's just he has the same name as Only Male and thus was dubbed Boyfriend). Yes Pillow now has a boyfriend, she's very fond of him. He moved in with us right after my birthday, before that Pillow would travel to visit him. He's very nice and very nerdy which is pretty much all Pillow needs in a partner. We still see B-Dizzle often though of course not as often but she's doing well in her new flat.
For my birthday Pillow and B-Dizzle and Boyfriend pooled together money and brought me a graphics card, I was so happy and excited and then it wouldn't work with my computer... I screamed my rage into the heavens looked at my bank account and admitted defeat. I now have a new desktop computer which works my graphics card perfectly and so I have partaken of all the games, Sims 3, Sims 4, Stardew Valley, it's been good. I also have retrieved all the data from my old laptop and found out that unless I want to pay $200 or more I'll probably never be able to get what was on my old hard drive back, yes I said old as I now have two new ones, one for course related things and one for writing, movies, pictures and so on.
I've been busy with course and haven't written much of anything this year, though I continue to have read a ton of Fanfiction. Hamilton is still my jam. B-Dizzle and I went to Wellington Armageddon and had a blast. I have done nada of my Christmas shopping though I do have my bus thickets there and back booked. Pillow went and saw Ed Sheeran again this year. B-Dizzle, Pillow, Boyfriend and I went and saw The Crimes of Grindelwald, it was good.
I'm sure there's more things but I can't think of them right now so bye bye.
Currently Listening to: The Bells of Notre Dame
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Well my birthday has been and gone, for basically the past month my sisters foster son has been staying with us while he tries to sort out his housing and uni stuff, which has been... an experience, I'd forgotten how much I didn't like staying with boys until.
B-Dizzle has been in Italy for the last two weeks for a conference and from her pictures she's been having a blast, while Pillow has been house-sitting for her brother for about the same amount of time. Usually it would just be me and the kitteh and I would listen to my music loud and clean unfortunately it wasn't and so I couldn't.
I've felt an urge to write for the past little while and haven't really been able to channel it properly. I've enrolled in an Interior Design course for next year, don't know how I really feel about it, bit excited, bit scared but we'll see, hopefully it goes well.
We have a house inspection coming up so that's a bit of cleaning to do and some weeding but we should be alright; the kitteh has had a stiff walk recently, she had to go see the vet not long ago.
I've been reading Harry Potter fanfiction, also I think I have a problem with regards to chocolate fish, but they're just so tasty I can't help myself.
I shudder to think what our power bill is going to look like this month, last month it had gone up $100 with our visitor, it's going to be interesting to say the least.
My birthday was good, the girls and I painted our nails and ate incredible amounts of junk food and turned our lounge into a blanket fort which was awesome. The kitteh tried to get in on it and eat some of the cheezels but we managed to stop her. The next night we saw some friends, including Only Male, went out for dinner had my traditional birthday Guiness, got presents, came home played Cards Against Humanity and drank some more. All in all a good time was had by all.
My medical certificate expires soon so I need to get that refilled out, need to see my Counselor; I've missed quite a bit of time from the library so I need to get back into gear with that, I need to book my Christmas bus back home while it's not as expensive.
Oh! I've started some of my Christmas shopping, hopefully this will mean that I have more money by the time December comes around, fingers crossed.
I played some Sims recently building houses and decorating them, I tried building a Victorian style house, which I found interesting because usually no matter the exterior I go rather modern internally which means a large kitchen as the central social space, however for this house my kitchen was rather small and to the back while the dining room and drawing room/ parlour was the major space for socialising, it meant that I spent ages looking for tea-sets though which was both interesting and irritating as they're quite hard to find, and then I wanted a cake-stand with cake which seems to be impossible and irked me, but it's done now, I mean I still have some decorating to do with the rest of the house but the drawing room is finished, so yay!
Oh! And I finally saw Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them! And I'm not a Freaking NIFFLER!
And I think that's about me for now.
Currently Listening To: Selena Gomez- Bad Liar
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So I'm reading Batman/ Young Justice fanfiction again. Oh man, I admit I have a problem.
I'm enrolling in an Interior Design course through UCOL next year. I'm also addicted to the Hamilton Soundtrack.
Armageddon Auckland is packed with all the people and I need it. The Wellington one was great and Wonder Woman was amazeballs.
This winters been freaking cold. Pillow got me into this game called Creativerse which is a sandbox computer game, I've been enjoying it, it's been a good break from Skyrim for me lol.
There's so much else, I've been watching Yuri on Ice, I read the latest Nalini Singh book, we cleaned out our fridge, oh! I discovered the most awesome thing ever oats in a cup that you just add hot water to, they are awesome.
My birthday is next month and we're planning to pretend to be fourteen year old girls, and eat lots of junk food, I'm looking forward to it. I want to buy a new dress for it.
Our old flatmate Only Male now has a partner, and we met him, he's nice. We were social and went to their house-warming there were a ton of other people there so social-ness happened.
Teh Kitteh has recently discovered a liking for the pet safe milk that we have started buying her, she's so cute when she gets her 'I only want the cat milk' face on.
And I can't really think of anything else.
Currently Listening To: Christopher Jackson- One Last Time
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I've finally stopped reading Batman fanfiction!!
I've moved on to Naruto fanfiction. I really can't say if that's any better but it's a change so that should count. Though I will admit that a lot of it is just rereading many fanfictions that I've read before but that's part of what I enjoy; rediscovering ideas that I can fiddle around with in my head.
I've been looking at free online courses, I'm thinking of enrolling in a short one to see how I do then expanding from there, I've also been looking at taking a course in Interior Design, mostly because of my Sims but also because it seems interesting and it's not writing so maybe I won't feel as stressed and like a failure if I don't do well in it, and wow now that I see that written down I realise that I never even consciously acknowledged that was an underlying factor in my stress, huh you learn something new about yourself everyday.
I hunted for a shoe rack for my Sims for like a week, I didn't even really need it for what I thought of since I'd already finished decorating that room and if I changed it it'd irk me because of how much effort I put in. I ended up downloading more plants instead. I have a problem. Like a serious one.
I've been sleeping better recently, who knows how long it'll last but I'm enjoying it while it does.
My flatmates and I are getting ready for Armageddon again this year, we'll maybe be bringing my sister and my pseudo-nephew this year, also Wonder Woman comes out at the same time and I'm super hyped for it, like such excite! By Batman that is some terrible grammar.
I've looked at three different schools which I can do an interior design through, two are online and one has the course here at UCOL, the UCOL one is the most expensive, I don't know how to compare the three though, except the online two are cheaper and the cheapest I think is just a short term module rather than a full course but I don't know, event that's a lot of money and I just don't have it, and I don't know how I feel about applying for more from the Government because what if it doesn't work out aren't I just building up debt and wasting peoples time? I don't know, but that's why I see a counselor, I'll talk about this with them and maybe work something out.
Winters coming and it's supposed to rain here some time this week, apparently there's a big cyclone somewhere in the Pacific (I really don't pay that much attention, I know I should but I just can't) I wonder if it'll hit us and if it does whether it'll be like the one early last month, there was a ton of flooding which we ended up driving through on our Roadtrip.
I think that's me for today
Currently Listening To: Halsey- Coming Down
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So recently instead of fanfiction I've been reading comics, I found this great website that has completed copies of comics from like the 1930s, which is awesome. I've been reading Cassandra Cains run as Batgirl and the original Young Justice comics as well as Gotham Academy. There are also various others including the Lara Croft comic.
What else? I went and brought new arctic sheets yesterday they're purple and they were only $30 so yay!
Thinking about the Batman fanfiction that's been percolating in my head I've realised it's a combination of pre- and new-52, but only certain parts, I'm not the biggest fan of New-52 I feel like they really cut out a whole lot of character development and history, especially with Tim, I mean in the pre-52 universe he was a detective first and foremost he worked damn hard to make up for the fact that he wasn't naturally inclined towards athleticism, and then they were like Olympic medal gymnast who jumped in without planning to find out who Batman was- No, Tim Drake is a meticulous planner, he's a workaholic who has back up plans to the back up plans of his back up plans, he takes Bat-paranoia to the next level, I mean really.
I made a chocolate self-saucing pudding a few days ago, it was delicious. Pillow went away for a few days but she's back today so that's nice. I need to buy a new nail buffer. Teh Kitteh has been lazing in the sun a lot and chasing off other cats as is her way, we're getting new neighbors and Pillow and I have been a little worried about how that's going to go for us, because our kitteh isn't the most friendly but she likes to be able to wander around what she thinks is hers and the front lawn of our neighbors house counts to her, our first neighbor never seemed to mind she'd shoo her if she went somewhere she wasn't supposed to but she wasn't violent, and she was an elderly lady so we didn't have to worry about any excitable little kids chasing her, we have no idea what the new neighbors are like, they haven't moved in yet and it's all a bit... nervous/ nerve-wracking(?).
Heh another cat came by and teh Kitteh got her growl on, it really shouldn't amuse me as much as it does but eh I can't help it, I'm easily amused.
Currently Listening To: Cher- Just Like Jesse James
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I miss writing. I miss my stories, being able to open one up and just keep going or to open an empty document and start. This computer doesn't have the right document software. *Sigh*
I'm still reading Batman fanfiction, and mentally writing it.
Easter was good, I ate many chocolate. I watched the new Beauty and the Beast movie and really liked it, the soundtrack is awesome, I also rewatched Robin Hood: Men In Tights, which continues to amuse me.
I start mentally writing things when I'm trying to sleep and yet now when I have an open window in front of me to write on ... nada. My mind is a blank space empty of words. Son of a monkeys brothers goat skin.
Right so last time I talked about my Batman AU idea, mostly focussing on Bart, the idea itself, however, is a massive BatFamily centric universe where people are happy, the idea started with one fanfiction I read where the Robin in the first season of Young Justice is Tim(1), then I read another one where it was Nightwing who founded the Teen Titans (in the cartoon) instead of Dick Grayson as Robin, and the Titans didn't know he had been Robin(2). There were others where Batman had taken in each of the BatKids earlier, one of the best (3) inspired me, and using my mind as a blender along with ideas from tons of other fanfiction. All of those ideas created the freaking epic BatFamily universe which seems to get bigger in my head every time I read a comic or fanfiction or even look at pictures, none of it is written down anywhere though because I can never seem to figure out how to begin.
The basic idea is that all five of the BatKids were found or adopted within a very short time of each other, Dick Grayson was Robin, but he grew up to become Nightwing and formed the Teen Titans; Cassandra Cain trains with Barbara Gordon (Batgirl) and after the Joker happens and Babs loses her legs Cass takes over as Batgirl; Jason Todd was the second Robin who left to become Red Hood and work in the Outlaws with Arsenal (who is a clone of the original Roy Harper) and StarFire; Tim Drake is the third Robin and he's the Robin that forms Young Justice alongside Impulse, Superboy, Artemis, Miss Martian and Aqualad; Damian Wayne is still in training and doesn't yet have a name. When Young Justice is formed no-one knows that there's been more than one Robin, the Teen Titans are an unaffiliated group formed by young heroes, the Outlaws tend toward more covert heroics, and the Bats all tend to be secretive so none of their teammates really have any idea about them.
All of that is just a basic outline of the whole thing which sits in my head getting bigger constantly and that I'm probably never going to post even if I eventually write it out. Some of my fanfictions are like that, really I only write them for myself just because that was what I wanted to read but I'm way too invested in it to actually put it out there. It's still strange to me how invested you can get in soemthing that wasn't even originally your brain child.
Well that's me for now.
Currently Listening To: Ed Sheeran- Galway Girl
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Happy Good Friday!
The Roadtrip was awesome, we went to Hobbiton and drank at the Green Dragon. We saw lots of different family members and brought new books and honey scented things. Also we got rained on, a lot. Still it was a great trip and the playlist worked appropriately.
B-Dizzle made Pillow and I an egg hunt to celebrate Easter and now we've gotten paranoid about whether we've found them all or not, mostly because we keep finding more. Last night it was poring down with rain and we both went outside in our pajamas to find eggs so yeah we're not the best adults.
I've still been playing Skyrim I've got 3 of the add ons now Dawnguard, Dragonborn and Hearthstone; also I now have Witcher 3 and Dragon Age: Inquisition for reasons... good reasons. I haven't started playing them yet but the time will come.
I've also learnt that apparently one of my nieces would have a promising future as a con artist or extortionist, not really something you want to learn about your 9 year old niece but hey.
I'm back on Batman fanfiction but I was reading Young Justice fanfiction and now I want to write an alternate universe fanfiction where before coming back in time Bart Allen was rescued from the Reach by Tim Drake who subsequently gave him into the care of his younger brother before dying, and so Bart was raised by Damian, from between the ages of 3 and 9 when Damian was killed and Bart recaptured, Bart (being a genius, Bat-raised, Speedster) had already been planning a Time Machine and escaped alongside Neutron; the two then build the Time Machine and Bart travels back in time only something goes wrong and it takes him back too far and he ends up at Wayne Manor before Tim(a part of the alternate universe idea) ever helped form Young Justice, anyway cue Bart freaking out while conveniently surrounded by Bats who quickly realise that Barts Time Travelling is in no way just a vacation and end up getting a few pertinent details out of him before he clams up, the most important of these being that Damian is basically his Dad (which is a bit weird as Damian himself is only 9 at the time) after having all this proved and the Flash being brought in, everyone discusses what to do with Bart, Barry suggests the Garricks and Alfred eventually wrangled everyone into a agreeing that it'd probably smart to let the traumatised still grieving kid stay somewhere he feels safe which basically means with the Waynes. Thus Bart ends up helping Tim rescue Connor from Cadmus labs and form Young Justice and have lots of adventures eventually saving the world from the Reach. Everything is out of order and messy and Out of Character and people are happy.
Why can't characters just be happy? Is it too much to ask?
Currently Listening To: Against the Current- Chasing Ghosts
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Well it's March, what have I been up to?
I started reading this one really good, really long fanfiction, I read the latest Nalini Singh books, which were freaking glorious, I worship her ability to create worlds. What else? I watched Moana and Dr. Strange. Pillow and B-Dizzle and I have been planning our road trip where we're going, what music we need, who we're going to visit and so on.
It's been strangely hot here recently damn summer heat we managed to avoid it for a long while but now it's back. I miss being able to write my stories and develop my Opus, I lie in my bed some nights and all I can think of is different world building facts that I can't record in the appropriate place which throws me off so I can't get my thoughts to sit properly so I can write them out, which is irksome. I've been trying once more to become more comfortable with driving, I don't know I think I'm getting better and then I freak out, I need to get better though and practice makes perfect as they say.
I brought Skyrim and have been playing that, I have a bad habit of taking everything I find though but that's how I am in most games so there's not much I can do to change it I'm an acquisitive person by nature I like finding things. Pillow and I have also been playing Diablo 3 which is fun I admittedly have a bad habit of cackling evilly as I kill my enemies but it's just too glorious for me not to.
We have new neighbours and by Batman are they LOUD sweet merciful Shire sometimes I just want to muzzle them all, and I am not alone in that, Pillow and B-Dizzle have also expressed a desire to impose quiet on them, *sigh* children why you so loud?
For Valentines day Pillow B-Dizzle and I exchanged chocolates and flowers just like good Waifus, admittedly platonic polygamous Waifus but still it was something nice that made us all feel appreciated and shows that there are people who care about us and isn't that what Valentines day should be? Pillow and I also went into town and brought games and nail polish I got three two of which are only shades off of each other but that slight difference is important.
I really like the Moana soundtrack, a lot of people don't like the movie but I did, I mean there isn't an epic character shift like Frozen but I personally think it's still a freaking brilliant movie even if only for the soundtrack and the Grandma.
My aunty passed away last week, I don't really know how I'm dealing with it, I don't think I am, I don't deal well with grief so I tend to ignore it until it blindsides me, and yes I get that's not healthy but I don't know how to ... not. So yes it's abstractly sad but as long as I don't really think about it I don't get all the feelings, mostly I worry about my Mum because it was her older sister who passed and I worry about how she's coping but my sister and her family are currently living with Mum so even that's more and abstract worry that's constantly in my face, this of course doesn't change the fact that it's one of those things that leaves me staring at my ceiling when I try to sleep if I'm not drop dead tired, but hey who needs a healthy sleep pattern anyway huh? Certainly not me.
I'm excited about our roadtrip even though I haven't been doing to well with the soundtrack or the saving parts. I'm not a consistently reliable person I have accepted this fact and am learning to work around it, it just takes a bit of time.
Currently Listening To: Against the Current- Running With The Wild Things
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So it's a new year. I didn't do NaNo this year, as might have been obvious by the lack of November posts. I read a ton of Final Fantasy fanfiction and I discovered this great website for reading comics online here.
Christmas was nice, I went back to my home town, saw all of my family, ate a lot of good food, got some nice presents and people liked my presents for them so yay! New years was pretty quiet played my new Injustice game with Pillow... she won... a lot. But it was loads of fun. We also fulled a colander up with candy it was thus named the Mystical Candy Bowl. Hawke's Bay was very hot but since coming back it's been pretty cool and raining. It's been quite a rainy New Year.
I've been rewatching Digimon Frontier, seeing if I could make it past the episodes I always tended to get stuck on good news is I have, huzzah!
Previously B-Dizzle last year had brought a swan plant, it's spawned a lot of butterflies since then which has been nice.
Hopefully this year will be a good one, I'm hoping to do things this year I don't exactly know what things but things. My flatmates and I are supposed to go to Hobbiton this year so that's something to look forward to.
Currently Listening To: Digimon Frontier Opening
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This computer has no gifs on it how am I suppose to correctly express my feelings without gifs? How!? *Epic Pout*
Enough of that. NaNo is coming soon, I've been to back home recently, haven't been been up to very much, my birthday was nice, saw some people, drank.
Ooh Pillow go this new game a while ago called Stardew Valley, it's freaking awesome, I brought it then discovered I couldn't play it, which is just yet another example of my shitty lucky which has been in fine form recently.
My family are all well and they liked their birthday presents so that's good, I don't really know how to explain how I feel there I love my family but when I visit I feel like they're set in a routine and me being there just reintegrates me into it like I'd never left. I dunno. So Christmas presents need to be brought.
Pillow, B-Dizzle and I recently watched a ton of crime movies, also we're in the middle of watching Luke Cage on Netflix (which I guess is useful for watching stuff on the big TV without having to connect anything else) that was fun.
I haven't really been in the right place to write anything recently I need to get the information from my hard-drive and laptop before I can actually do anything, which is really annoying. I've been pinning stuff so theres that and reading a lot of fanfiction, I managed to log back into my Tumblr so thats a yay.
Anyway that's all I can really think of to write right now, I miss my comics and ebooks and my writing, but I need to sort out dollars before I can deal with that, though that's finally gotten fixed after it went off the rails in August so woop.
Currently Listening to: Gabrielle Aplin- The Power of Love
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I missed two months... oops?
Right what's up with me recently... my laptop died like words I shouldn't use, I've been using the desktop I brought for Sims which is not the optimal decision for me, all my writing! And my music and books and comics and pictures and dammit, anger.
April was itself, May was alright but I don't know I started feeling all weird like listless or something... unmotivated.
I've got new glasses now, and I got a haircut. I had super long hair (it reached my lower back and when straightened my butt) but now it's at my shoulders I think I look okay, I'm thinking of dying it, but I dunno.
It's winter here now, huzzah. I like listening to the rain but weeding the gardens in it's a bit much. We went to Armageddon again this year, it was amazing I brought a Pop Cap figure of Ace from One Piece it's so cute! I also brought an Urahara hat. Oh oh also I watched Magi, this first season at least, it's so cute! And cool.
I have really bad technological luck, at the end of first year I lost a cell phone I'd had for like three months and the hard drive I'd brought not long before that died, the new (bigger) hard drive I brought to replace that was decidedly twitchy about working if it's cord got touched, my laptop decided to be weird and not work while charging and not hold the charge properly before dying altogether, so I got a new laptop, my cellphone that I got to replace the one I lost decided that it wouldn't let me top up anymore, my laptop decided it didn't want to be able to play cds for extended periods of time, my new desktop had three hard drives only one of which worked, my external hard drive died, my laptop broke and died, my cellphone (a new one, it's "smart") decided that even though it's basically empty it's storage is fill (what even?) and now we have reached present day. It's like I'm where technology goes to die or break, Batman.
In happier news I made triple chocolate chunk chocolate cookies, they're tasty and if I had slightly less self control and a bigger stomach I would happily gobble them all like a greedy little cookie monster. Om nom nom.
I've been reading a lot of Hobbit and Lord and the Rings fanfic which has been nice but also sad. Some fanfic is like that though. Oh also I made an account on AO3 mainly only so I could read this one really good Merlin fanfic called a Modern Manservant. Ah there's something else I don't know if it's just because I've changed computers but my Tumblr is being annoying and not letting my log in, I don't really understand why but meh.
I have a super busy week this week which is good in it's own way, also a musician who I like on Soundcloud no longer has a lot of her fandom songs up which is really sad to me. Oh and we have Netflix now (I still don't really get why, I guess it's useful to watch stuff on the Xbox but otherwise I just don't really understand) well that's me for today I think.
Currently Listening To: Sia- Freeze You Out
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Alright, so WINZ has happened, it went alright. My volunteering has been going well so far I think. I like tidying shelves and I can have one headphone in while I work, I've been finding interesting sections in the library, like World History which I've become strangely interested in because of fricking Hetalia which I'm still on a kick of, also PruCan for the win!
I made a Chimera pinterest board which is helping me sort my world building, I tend to like having visuals while I work, it makes me feel better. I wish I could illustrate better then I could draw out scenes I tend to think in images and translating them into words isn't always easy. I went to Spotlight and got two Styrofoam balls to make globe maps before I try and draw them out flat, also I decided that the Capital City would be on a circular grid which is interesting to me. I've been trying this thing where you listen to a song and then try to write a oneshot based on it before it finishes which is interesting, and quite hard. I'm also still working on World Building which is really hard but I guess I just have to put my nose to the grindstone and work.
We're suppose to be doing some gardening this weekend, of course we were suppose to do it last weekend and the one before that but we'll get there eventually, I discovered that the Warehouse is selling records which was surprising.
Pillow and I went to do the thing. Flying in the plane was a little scary (a lottle) but also sort of fun-ish. The thing went well. I was very poor for a while because WINZ cancelled my disabilities benefit but they have since fixed that and so I'm currently financially okay which is very good. I re-enrolled for the first time in ages so that's good news, though I'm on the Maori electorate instead of the General one and I don't know how to change that. I watched a lot of anime, some I only watched the first few episodes of and others I watched in their entirety, it rocked.
Pillow, B-Dizzle and I went to see Deadpool. It rocked! Seriously, hardcore rocked. Also because of the massive Hetalia kick that I'm on right now when (spoiler)*Colossus tried to convince Deadpool to join the X-men* I just had the most massive image of Russia saying "Become one with Mother Russia, da?" Which was scary and a little hilarious.
I'm trying to think of what else I've been up to but I'm drawing a blank, though I did have crepes for the first time on Saturday, which is exciting also I could have had churros but I didn't. Well that's me for now.
Currently Listening To: Cobra Starship- Hot Mess
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Right so, I have a new WINZ person, which I'm kinda bummed about cos I liked my last one, he was quite nice and easy to talk to. My disabilities benefit isn't coming through just yet which pisses me off cos I still need to buy a new dress for the thing next weekend, well ok not need but would feel better. Also there were bills and so I have twelve dollars and minimal food, and still have a bill to pay.
We had our flat inspection from the note the inspector left I assume it went well, I got all the weeding done clean the bathroom, minimally cleaned my room so yeah.
Oh man I go in for training for volunteer work at the library on Wednesday, I'm sort of looking forward to it and sort of trepidatious about it, but it's good news, it is, it's getting back into the saddle.
In other news I read the new Nora Roberts book Stars of Fortune, oh mama was it good, I love her books and this one was set in Greece, I love Greece, all that history and nature and architecture and oh just everything, I get tingles just thinking about it.
In further other news I am taking up pilates, I've been using this one video from Youtube, I've thus far made it six minutes in after three tries, the beginning stretching exhausts me and I never realised how unfit I was until she said that it was a beginning stretch I thought it was an exercise, it killed me. But I will persevere, Pillows going to join me, also when we get back from the thing I'm enrolling in a gym, this is my year of fitness and doing better, also it counts as a leaving the house activity even if I drag Pillow with me.
I've been looking at world building for my story it's intense and requires a lot of thought and ideas and hard work, because you can't just throw people onto a backdrop in a story the speak metaphorically people will see right through the paint at the holes in the canvas, a huge part of plot and character development is the setting, and if you're writing fantasy or science fiction you need to know a crap load. I still can decide if what I'm writing counts as fantasy or sci-fi it has elements of both but I need to buckle down and write out basically everything also I really want a blank globe to map geography on so I'll look into buying one at Warehouse Stationary. I've also been thinking about time keeping and the length of a year, Earth once counted a ten month year but we're at twelve now and I'm thinking of making my worlds a sixteen month one, it would go with the idea that time passes differently out of their world and the longevity that I've been thinking of ascribing to them. But yeah.
Pillow should be back soon and the Kitteh and I will be happy to see her.
Currently Listening to: Ed Sheeran- Afire Love
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It is the New Year, huzzah. This year will be better, it will be good. It Will.
My hard-drive is currently on the Fritz which is worrying and bothersome. I read the Hawkeye comics, they're hilarious. I'm looking forward to Deadpool in February along with a celebration with my family, it'll be the first time I've ever flown on a plane I'm not sure what it'll be like, exciting though.
I'm looking at poems by someone named Nikita Gill on Pinterest, they're good. Oh I've also really gotten into art by Chiara Bautista.
New Years was pretty quiet, and Christmas was, good but a bit nerve-wracking. Also there were kittens, tiny adorable kittens I wanted to keep them all but couldn't since there were eight of them, so teeny and *squee noises*. My family was all good though, and I got the Taylor Swift cd and Ed Sheeran cd for Christmas so Yay!
We've still got quite a bit of weeding to do here, and I've got a WINZ appointment sometime but I cannot for the life of me remember when. I've got an email about volunteering and I haven't replied yet but I meant to but it's freaking me out and I just don't know what to do, I mean I know what to do but when I saw it I didn't want to click on it, then when I read it I was like how do I respond like I mean I know how but just I don't know, I mean I still have library fees why would they want me? I just need to breath, and do something instead of thinking, but it's been days what if that counts against me? Oh balls. Right. I'm just going to breath for now and cope later.
We went on a baking kick and I made cheesy buns and lemon madeiras, Pillow made double chocolate chewy cookies which were really good.
Oh, and we watched all of Jessica Jones, it was really really good, admittedly we watched it in four days but that's okay because at least we didn't just spam watch it all in one, which we could've.
Also I brought a Deadpool t-shirt oh and a Supernatural one, so things are good. Oh and Pillow has a candle that smells really really good, it's oatmeal and raisin and damn, does it smell good.
I think that's me for todays report.
Currently Listening To: Taylor Swift- Clean
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Well it's December, I did actually do quite a bit of writing last month. I still have a bit of Christmas shopping to do, this week is a big one for me because I have to have everything bought and packed by Thursday while also doing all of my little other things, like the Doctor and counselling; I also want to sort out my room and possibly the freezers before I leave. I feel like I have so much to do and so little time to do it.
Pillows cat attacked my face this morning because I wouldn't get up and feed her and also I wanted my bed.
I was on a Charmed fanfic kick which resulted in me watching quite a few episodes, now I'm reading ebooks on my computer as I contemplate all of the things I still have to do.
My brain is a little preoccupied with all of the lists I need to write down but it still has time to contemplate my Opus, I need to write proper profiles out for all of the characters and how they develop, I also need to figure out where technologically they are and how a lot of their tech works, curse my mind for focussing on a new world instead of a society that runs adjacent to Earth, there's also geography and culture to consider, the way different peoples interact socially, not only on Chimera but on the other worlds that they're allied with, not only that but the Solar System Chimera is a part of is also being afflicted by a group called Slave Takers, Chimera itself is magically shielded whilst entrenched in its Civil War but once that's resolved they're going to be busy trying to rebuild their alliances and more, why does my mind create such an intricate Universe? Well once I get it all written out maybe it'll become super popular, who knows.
Before that, however, I need to get it written, I need to sort out the history, mythology, geography, societal hierarchy, and more. Phew
Currently Listening to: Sam Smith- Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas
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I'm supposed to write things out in an ordered manner but my mind doesn't work like that.
I'm stalled in my chapter it's set in the time when Hermione meets the boys but my mind keeps focussing on the death of Selene Lovegood and the various plots of Dumbledore and Lucius Malfoy and the Death of Walburga Black which canonically happened when Harry was five but which I'm making happen when he's six/seven early in 1998, I'm also a little stuck on Sirius and Marlene McKinnon and the idea that they dated pretty seriously during their last few years of Hogwarts and the early years of the war before the entire McKinnon family was killed, I've been thinking that they'd be killed soon after Lily finds out that she's pregnant and for a while Sirius can't cope properly and stays with the Potters, he goes to Lily's birthing classes with her when James can't and he's the one who buys the strange foods that she craves and discusses baby names (trying to slip Elvendork in there and talking both Potters out of naming the baby after friends who've died {if you did that Prongs the kid would have so many names it's not funny, he jokes despite the horrible truth of it, so many of their friends are dead now}), the Potters are the ones who help him grieve Marley and then Regulus, when he finds out that his Slytherin brother (who he hasn't properly spoken to since he left home at sixteen, even years later he wonders whether if he'd tried harder to convince him Reggie would have come too) has died trying to escape his fate as a Death Eater. It's Harry's birth and being named godfather that allows Sirius to properly begin to move on with his life which makes it all the sadder when you realise that no-one was there to help him grieve the Potters properly.
All of these things are busy dancing around in my head ideas snow-balling or fading and that's just for this fanfic. I started thinking about my Opus and now I'm wondering if I should write about Melchiors descent into Necromancy and beyond as a catalogue of his change trying to get people to sympathise/empathise not realising who he is and them BAM the realisation that one of the main characters they've been rooting for is in fact the depraved lunatic whose death they've been longing for, it'd be a good twist but I'm not sure how I'd do it. I think it'd be a good way to show that even in fiction there isn't always a clean tidy solution and ending for everyone, not every bad guy starts out that way and some times the best intentions lead to the worst sort of corruption and that sometimes there is no redemption especially when they're so far gone that even at the end they don't see that they've done anything wrong, how do you rehabilitate someone who is sure their right? I've been wondering if I should kill off one of the focal characters but I'm so attached to them I don't want to, I can't be the Lord Farquad writer whose like "Some of you may die, but that is a sacrifice I am willing to make." I don't want the ones I like to die! I barely want the ones I don't like to die why do you think my main evil character is a Necromancer? Most of his army are just reanimated dead people sometimes even reanimated people who fought against him, which let me tell you can lead to some heart-wrenching moments especially since even when they're put down again he can just reanimate them, though most of them are just the soul-less bodies powered by his magic others he put actual effort into and they're back completely, except with little to no control over themselves, they are merely receptacles of his power bound to do his bidding.
Right, I haven't been good with the updating of the blog but I will! For now I shall go forth and write, getting it on here was a good way to sort it a bit in my head, good blog, helpful blog.
Currently Listening To: The Corrs- So Young
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So I was bad. I was really tired and I missed out on the last ten days. I haven't written in that time either. A couple days ago I went to WINZ, while earlier in the week I did a little Christmas shopping which I'm going to continue doing until it's all done, I also wrote out a list of what to get everyone. I've been reading Harry Potter fanfic, and watching Durarara a lot recently. Today I did my dishes and my washing, yesterday I had the worst most terrible headache ever, B-Dizzle and I are going to make buns today so that's a Yay. I also recently went through a phase where I responded to everything with Bah hah hah, it was weird.
So as I mentioned earlier I've been reading Harry Potter fanfic, I think I want to write more of my fanfic but I don't know just yet. The ones I spent a good several days stuck on were ones where James and Lily come back from the grave and let me tell you I have got some freaking bones to pick! For one Albus Frickidy-fracking Dumbledore was the Headmaster of Hogwarts, the Chief Mugwump of the ICW so a politician/ ambassador, and the Chief Warlock of the Wizengamot a judge for the Wizarding court/ chairman of their political thingy, whatever no where in there does he have the right to decide custody over a child, no where in there is it up to him to decide whether a kids parents can live with said kid, I mean for the love of Gotham, these are the people who died for their son and suddenly Dumbledores allowed to tell them whats best for him? Or even better Molly Weasley is believed to have more right to mother him and parent him deciding what information he is and isn't allowed to know than his own parents? By the power of Batman I am irked, IRKED I say, I mean yes they came back from the dead but the person who should be allowed to decide what happens to Harry should be the person they entrusted with his care, Sirius should be the one to decide what Harry hears and how he's parented not them, I always get so annoyed. The fifth book is where I blatantly stopped reading, number one because of Umbridge, no teacher should feel perfectly safe and comfortable torturing students children whose care she has been trusted with in an environment that is meant to be safe, number two the end of it I will speak no further, number three Harry watched a fellow student, one he had played against and cooperated with one with whom he had an amicable and friendly relationship die and everyone decided that it would be a great time to ignore him in his borderline abusive household without talking to him about what he might be feeling like say survivors guilt? Real freaking smart idea and then they're all like why are you so angry your acting childish, he's stilling coping with watching a fellow student whom he was friendly with DIE and the man who killed his parents come back to life I'm sorry that his feelings are inconvenient to you. Number four Molly and Sirius argument about how much Harry should know, I don't care how much she supposedly cared for Harry it was not her place to decide and then to say Sirius only saw Harry as James? That was a low blow especially when staying in his house, the place where he was abused and that he swore never to return to. Essentially I hated the fifth book and only ever read the sixth and seventh in Characters Read the Books fanfic because I wouldn't have been able to make it through without trying to kill something without having the characters butt in.
For my fanfic I'm thinking about Selene (Luna's mum who's name hadn't been released when I started) Lucius and Dumbledore plotting, the fact that Walburga didn't die until Harry was five but I've already past that and now I want to use her death for something, there's also the Basilisk to deal with and Luna's grandparents. Oh well I'll get there.
Currently Listening to: Florence and the Machine- The Queen of Peace
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Well today I worked on my Bleach fic, I've decided to write the random adventures of Urahara, Yoruichi, Tessai, Ichigo and the Visored up to canon so currently the first four are heading to America, Urahara to study Science, Yoruichi and Tessai for the vacation and Ichigo because well he basically just goes where Urahara goes, at this point I'm pretty sure neither of them know how to correctly function without the other which is going to make canon so much fun. Kisukes had all of his Shinigami life and a strong portion of his human life to get used to Ichigo helping him with experiments and dealing with people for him, suddenly a lot of his actions in canon can be looked at in a completely different way. At this point I'm pretty sure that by the time canon comes around the only people he'll actually be able to interact with without making some sort of faux pas and having Ichigo fix it will be those who he went into exile with and canon-Ichigo since he's still Ichigo.
It's going to be fun to go through that. In the meantime I still have to fold my washing and I have dishes to do now, yay.
I slept a lot today and now I'm uber-boiling some eggs to mash onto toast for my dinner/breakfast. It was raining today so I got to enjoy yet another part of the season of Spring where it can't make up it's mind what season to be so it throws both at you. Luckily I didn't have to be anywhere.
Currently Listening To: Broods- LAF
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So today is the tenth day of November. I rewatched several episodes of One Piece, I want to say I did it to help me with my writing but that would be a lie. I just really wanted to watch the episodes where the Straw Hats reunite after two years. Reunion and revelation fics are some of my favourites.
Working on the One Piece fic, also thinking on ways too develop the characters of my opus. I need to remember to treat every character as an individual person no matter how insignificant their part may be initially. Just because I don't think I'm going to use them much at the beginning doesn't mean I won't need to bring them back in occasionally. I also need to copy all of my writing onto my hard drive so I have back ups. Nothing sucks more than spending ages working on something only for it to get wiped.
Today was also quite warm, and over cast. I've read the two last chapters of Detective Conan and I'm working up the nerve to read the latest Ubel Blatt, it's just so difficult because you want him to dominate and kick ass but he's so not used to his teeny little fairy body.
Currently Listening To: Hozier- Work Song
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Today the weather has decided to give us a sneak peak of what is to come this summer. By which I mean that it's been hot and sunny.
I'm chewing on strawberry bubble gum thinking of how to work the One Piece fanfic. As always I know where I want to go but getting there is the problem. It niggles at me at the most inopportune moments. I have flashes of scenes but I have no idea of how to approach them. Bah!
I need to fold my washing, return my library book, turn in my volunteer form, check when my next WINZ appointment is. Also need to see when my sisters coming to visit or if she still is with all the bad lck her family's been having recently.
I've read a few of the JD Robb books now I'm reading more. Eh heh heh.
I hope tomorrow is sunny but less hot.
Currently Listening To: Taylor Swift- Wildest Dreams
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